Just figured I would check in. I'm still alive and haven't gone off the deep end,lol. My last post was in January and all in all, things have been ok. I ended the relationship with Gwen for good a long time ago. We still talk from time to time, but its strictly as friends. I noticed I received quite a few comments from my "wake up call" post, mostly negative, but it's cool, its just others opinions and they are entitled to them.
My grandfather is in the nursing home still and I'm sure will be there until it is his time. We had a close call about a month or 2 ago and basically everybody went and said their goodbyes, but he pulled through. I do worry about my grandmother though and how she will deal with the inevitable. I have a feeling she still thinks he will miraculously get 100% and return home, but I'm afraid its just not gonna happen. I need to go visit him more, but its really hard for me to see him in the state he is in. Maybe I'm in denial of my own. Anyhow, I'm still living at their house and overall its not too bad. I still plan on getting my own place sometime this summer though.
Relationship wise...I took 2 months off from dating after the gwen thing ended and it felt great. That was the longest I have gone without being in a relationship in as long as i can remember. I admit, it wasn't always easy, but it was necessary.Then sometime in March, I met a girl. I'll write more on that tomorrow...
My daily struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder.
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I'm anxious to hear about this new girl...I check your blog daily for updates and was surprised and excited to see you wrote!! I was also waiting to read aboout what ever happened between you and Gwen..I was hoping that it could have worked out - she seemed like a positive part of your life for the most part - despite "the wake up call" night...I'm glad that you are at least friends...thats a good thing...a start...please post more...take care!!
I'm the same way, I have been diagnosed with not just borderline personality disorder but with multiple personality disorder and I am wondering if I'm ever going to be able to stay in a stable relationship. I've read some articles from http://www.mental-disorder.net and they are helping but in the end i feel hopeless.
Maybe you should link to the site for borderline or multiple personality disorder to people can just get there with a click. I feel bad for you london but you will beat this in the end and find someone who loves you no matter what.
Hi..me again. Just waiting for an update...please don't tease?
I was hopping to hear from you again. My life has been hell lately, and hearing how you think and feel about women, cheating, and relationships really has helped me deal with issues of my past. take care.
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