The reminiscing

I was going over some of my old posts and reminiscing, if you will. I realized that it's been about four months now since I last spoke to my father. In this time I have heard not a word from him. No attempt to contact me, nothing. I didn't expect him too try and honestly even if he did I know I would ignore it, but still. It really shows what kind of a person he is. I'm just glad that he didn't answer the door when I came over that drunk night. Who knows what would have happened.

I read through posts about "her" and I realized how much I miss her. The past is the past, I know I need to move on, but it doesn't mean I have to like it. Her parents live a few blocks away from me and occasionally I have to drive past their house on the way home. I drove by recently and saw her husbands truck there and I felt like throwing up. I don't really see her car there anymore, so I can only assume she moved back in with him. Oh well, I kind of knew deep down that it would end up that way. I have dated 3 women that were married when I met them and all 3 ended up going back home. You would have thought I would have learned my lesson the first time. I guess that should be my new rule..no more married women or women in relationships.

The breakup

Yesterday, I asked the rhetorical question when is it going to end? Well in regards to the married woman, it ended last night. I did some serious soul searching and came to the conclusion that I just can't do this anymore. I actually felt bad for her husband. From what she told me he is a good guy, gives her freedom(maybe too much) and supports her so she can go to school without working.I actually felt like I have a conscious(sp)...something I haven't felt in years if ever. Anyhow, she came by last night to pick up her math book and I told her it was over. I'll be honest I do miss her but I know deep down its for the best.

Kid weekend continues. My ex wife and I took them to Six Flags for awhile today. It was kind of weird, but fun. I also heard back from the lady with the spinal cord injury clinic that has been emailing me. We spent a good 20 minutes on the phone and I don't want to get my hopes up but it looks good so far. I am at least one of the top candidates according to her. If selected I would attend a month long course in either colorado or new jersey to get trained on training patients with spinal cord injuries. Hopefully Ill know something in the next few weeks or so.

The married girl

Spent most of yesterday with the married girl. Its easy to pretend that her husband does not exist when it is just her and I. Of course when it gets to be after 9pm and she isn't home yet and he calls, reality starts to sink in. After she left, the plan was for her to go home, change and then go out again later that night. As soon as she left home, what did I do? I called another girl and hung out with her and her friends until married girl called me to say she was ready. When is it ever going to be enough for me? What am I trying to prove? When is it ever going to end?